Hi bb. I saw your depression post.:( Seriously though, I'm here and I understand what you're going through because I went through that for a while. I still relapse but not as intense as before. I've gotten stronger, I think? haha anyway, seriously, if you need someone to talk to, i'll just be a message away. You know I love you.:)
THANK YOU SO MUCH BB! :) I will keep that in mind! I love you lotss (And I wish we were neighbors)
So, as you all know, I relapsed into my depression about 4 or 5 months ago but this time I didn't tell anyone.
And now all I want to do is scream it out to people when they talk about being "depressed" because they got in trouble last night or that they broke up with their boyfriend.
I mean I feel for them, I really do, and I know they are sad right now, I mean my friend’s step mother is a giant bitch and the friend that got dumped really thought she was in love, but eventually they’ll move on from that, they’ll heal.
They have no idea what it’s like for everything to be seemingly fine but to feel like everything is wrong. To be trapped inside of yourself and not get help from anyone. And to know, because you relapsed so many times, that you probably won’t heal.
In a way, I suppose I’m jealous. Maybe of the fact they know why they hurt, or maybe because they are brave enough to speak up and say "Hey, I’m having a bad day, can I talk to you." and I’m so very proud that they do, whether it’s to me or not.
But I still want to slap them across the face and say something like "I know things suck for you at this moment, but the feelings you describe, I’ve feeling been feeling them 10x more for 4 years."